So, it was a Monday morning and I was driving between 45 and 50 mph down a semi-busy four lane road with my 4-year-old in the backseat. If you were stopped at this light, you would turn left and be close to where it all went down:
At the part of the road where “it all went down”, there are two lanes traveling in one direction, a median, and two lanes traveling in the opposite direction. I was in the inside lane when all of a sudden, the car to my right slams on his brakes, which prompts me to…
Okay, I didn’t slam on my brakes fast enough…
AND I HIT FIVE DUCKS.
Here’s what I saw about a millisecond before that awful moment in time, except there were two adult ducks and about twice as many ducklings:
Looking at that picture makes my heart break in TONS of pieces, y’all!!! Someone give me a Kleenex and I’m not kidding!
In very rapid pace, I saw a large duck flying toward my car at which point, I did this,
and he did this,
He flew UNDER my car. The impact of duck to SUV felt much like someone throwing a football at my front fender.
I quickly pull over into the median and I see the mother duck, I’m assuming, rushing over the median and into the other two lanes of traffic with her ducklings probably saying “Ohcrapohquackohcrapohquack”. Meanwhile, the dad, the one who had just seen my oil pan, is kind of staggering around and looks much like a duck who has had too much to drink. (And, I’m sure we’ve all seen plenty of drunk ducks.)
(I’m not trying to make light of this because I don’t think it is tragic. It helps me to cope.)
He finally straightens out his feathers, catches up with his family and they all disappear into the woods.
Yay!! He survived!!!
At that point, I only thought I had hit Dad Duck and that he survived, but I decided to go back to the scene of the crime immediately to double-check.
You know what I saw, right?
Four dead ducklings. Complete goners.
I wasn’t sure what to do. They were tiny. I couldn’t see myself scraping them up and burying them. What was I going to do that with anyway? Poor precious things. Poooooooooor, poor precious things.
“OH, NO!!! I killed those baby ducks!”, I said to my 4-year-old while I clutched my face in my hands and stared at staggering Dad Duck.
“You killed baby ducks, Mom?”
“I didn’t mean to kill them. They just walked out in the road out of nowhere! I don’t even see water ANYWHERE around here. Where were they going?”
“Are they going to be dead forever, Mom?”
Those ducklings had probably just learned to walk. They had probably talked about their vacation to the other side of the four-lane busy street for weeks and then, KERSPLAT, I came along.
So, feeling like a worthless human being, I finally arrive home all sad and mopey still answering my son’s question about the ducks being dead forever (“and ever?”) because he asked it over and over (“and ever and ever?”) and saw this when I got out of the car:
“Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!”, I immediately yelled. Again. “IS THAT FROM THE DUCKS????”
It took me a few seconds to put it together that that actually wasn’t duck guts and was actually the strawberry smoothie my 4-year-old decided to dump out of the window while the car was in motion. (“I didn’t want it anymore.”) My heart took a few seconds to get the message.
It wasn’t long afterwards that I took the car to get it washed. I’m still fearful that I will look down at my tire and see a tiny, tiny duckling feather.
And, since then, my life hasn’t been the same.
I keep feeling the bump on the car from Dad Duck plummeting into it. I keep seeing the dead ducklings in my head. I keep remembering how the mother just kept scurrying across the busy street with her other ducklings. I wondered how long she thought about those four. Did she get safely across the street and then stare at them for a while to see if they would move? Was she sad? Or did she just keep running to their vacation spot? Did Dad Duck have an awful headache? Did he have access to Neosporin?
I can’t even take a bike ride with my two boys without feeling like a very large duck trying to keep her two ducklings from getting hit by a car. It probably doesn’t help that my favorite bike-riding outfit is a Donald Duck costume.
“DID YOU SEE THAT CAR? IT WAS TWO MILES AWAY AND PARKED ON THE ROAD! IT COULD HAVE HIT YOU!”
My son can’t stop thinking about it either.
“Mom, is those ducks still dead?”
“Mom, I saw a rabbit when I went bike riding with Daddy and no one had hit it yet. No one killed it with their car.”
Earlier today I said, “I still can’t believe I hit those ducks” as we drove away from dropping my oldest off at school. My 4-year-old then said, “You hit some more?”
(That last question actually made me laugh out loud.)
You have never hit anything before, have you? *Blows nose loudly* You have never extinguished the life (or lives) of precious, innocent animals with your mean, mean, mean, mean vehicle before, have you?
Or have you?
ANIMAL WHILE DRIVING?
In case you were still racking your brain over this one:*B.I.K.F.D. = Before I killed four ducklings**A.I.K.F.D. = After I…yeah, you got it.